Wow, it has been SO long since I've been on this thing. I feel very empty right now. It's 5:15am and this is a normal night/morning for me. Haven't slept yet... barely ever sleep. I recently moved in with Melissa and everything is changing. I finally have a steady, full-time job at Applebees.. Those are two of the few things I am happy about in my life right now. My brother is in with the wrong crowd and probably headed in the wrong direction. I haven't talked to my father in weeks, but last I heard he was going to check himself into rehab.. but I'll believe that when I see it. I no longer know my mother and it breaks my heart. Matthew and I broke up and that in itself is all I can say. I finally met someone else that I could be happy with.. but of course there is someone else and nothing ever works out for me. I've realized all you need are a few good people in your life to pull you through the tough times, and for now (and always) I have Melissa. I couldn't ask for a better person to be by my side. I have to work in a few hours... on that note, I'm gonna wrap this up. I don't think that anyone even uses this silly thing anymore but I feel better now that I let out some of how I feel.

Goodnight.

I have never been so unhappy with my life before. I feel trapped. =[

I don't know how to fix all the damage I have caused. And all the trust I have destroyed.

it's falling apart.

OMG OM GOMG MY BEST FUCKING FRIEND IS HOME TODAY AND IT'S SURRRRRREEALL ! I'M SO EXCITED. I DON;T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING ON LJ, THOUGH, I NEED TO BE GETTING READY TO GO OUT WITH HER, I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR THIS. I JSUT REALIZED I AM USING CAPS. OH WELL. I LOVE YOU MITZZZ !

i love my best friend. lots. i can't wait to live with her forreal.

If everything could ever feel this real forever,
If anything could ever be this good again.

♥

just because you know i'll always be here for you, and love you unconditionally- no matter what, does NOT give you the right to treat me like shit. i'm so sick of it.

this has been an amazing weekend =]

i'm now going to end it in a bed with my twacey =]